'Tis

I wish I could paint. My post, the previous one. It was a frenzy of emotions. I wanted to paint it. To draw it. To throw myself on a canvas. I was overwhelmed. And I wrote.
When I write, I just write. I don't think. I don't contemplate. I don't ponder. I start, and it happens. It starts with a random thought. Or an emotion. Or a feeling. Or just an urge to write.
It's beautiful. It's mysterious. I start, and it's like a mystery, cos I never know where it will end up. I never know what the next word will be. What the next thing I write will be. It's exciting. It's invigorating. It's like giving birth.
You started it, but you never know how it will turn out, what it'll turn out to be.
Words are beautiful.
They're just symbols. Just alphabets, with no meaning of their own. Just twisted lines and circles. But then string them together. An A follows an H, and a couple of Ps follow them, stringed together with a Y. What does A mean, or P? But put them together. You get happy. An entire emotion. An entire state of mind. Maybe even an entire person. Or an entire day. An occasion, an event. A victory. A triumph. A first kiss. A first crush. A promotion. An A. An essay well written. Ice cream. Music. Everything represented, just by a few lines and circles twisted and written as a word "happy".
That's the beauty of words.
Paintings. They use colour, strokes, water, and a great artist, to put forward something.
Writers have words. Words, that can create pictures. Words that can create people, worlds, feelings. Words. Words are pain and fear and hope and longing and happiness and smiles and beauty and trees and grass and the smell of rain and fury and calmness and meditation. Words are God.
It's wonderful. It's amazing.
It makes me happy. That just words can be so much. That they can be everything.
How just 26 different shapes can change lives, can change the world. Just 26 shapes, 26 sounds.

I am about to delve into one of my many pessimistic, cynical rantings, but it saddens me that so little people appreciate this. Appreciate the little things in life. How beautiful things, surreal things and ideas, tiny things, just pass them by.
The beauty of words. The importance of chairs. The significance of clocks. Time. Air. Water. Sunlight. Stars. Beautiful, beautiful stars.
Yet, right now, words fail me. I can't put into words what I'm feeling right now.
This awe, this feeling of how wonderful the world is! How wonderful everything is!
The power and beauty of words.
When I started writing the previous post, I was feeling angry and sad and in despair. It started as that. And then it turned into something entirely else. And so did I. Words, the power of my own words, just altered my current existence. They changed me from an angry, self loathing human being to someone filled with wonder and joy at the very existence of this world. All in a matter of minutes!!! It makes me so happy :)
The power and secret to your happiness really does lie within yourself. You just have to find that secret, that one little thing.
That one thing that makes you happy to be alive. The one thing that is you, that speaks to you from within you, from your mind. From the hidden, unexplored regions of your mind. Of what controls you.
People paint. They sing. They play. They solve. They think.
I write.
And it makes me happy.
I don't care if I'm good. I don't care if I'm bad. I don't care what other people think of it. I just know it makes me happy, and I will do it. I don't care if I can make money doing it. I don't know if other people will realise the importance of it. But I just don't care right now. As long as it makes me happy. As long as there are words. Words and words. Words from your reality. Words from your imagination. Words from you. Words from me.
Words.
And oxygen.
And water.
And the stars.
And the sun.
And the smell of rain.
Smile.

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Dark. Resplendent. Shadows. Stills. Lines. Paint. Blotches. Hash. Pulse. Black. Scratch. Rub. Smooth. Stroke. Erase. Splatter. Splotch. Blur. Harsh. Light. Shadow. Dark.
Plain. White.
Smooth. Soft. Strands. Hair. Brown.
Red. Scarlet. Bright. Bold. Furious. Angry. Rage. Heart. Pound.
Cool. Smooth. Calm. Clear. Water. Strands. Red. Wave. Circle. Wave. Diffuse. Spread.
Drop. Tap. Plop.
Plain. White.
Smear. Slash. Stroke. Harsh. Line. Stroke.
Smooth. Soft. Strands.
Squirt. Juice. Light. Smile. Orange. Beam. Hope. Fire. Burn.
Cool. Smooth. Flicker. Pale. Strands. Orange. Wave. Circle. Wave. Diffuse. SPread.
Drop. Tap. Plop.
Red. Strokes. Lines. Harsh.
Orange. Smear. Spread. Rub. Dab. Stroke. Merge.
Calm. Storm. Fire. Dark. Furious. Hopeful. Destruction.
Black. White. Red. Orange.
Hope. Sun. Rays. Shine. Turn. Flower. Yellow. Mellow. Bright. High.
Soft. Strands.
Cool. Flicker. Merge. Fire. Heat. Yellow. Wave. Circle. Wave. Fire. Red. Orange.
Hope. Fire. Rage. Hope.
Fresh. Wet. Green. Breathe. Glow. Smell. Life.
Stroke. Strands. Wet. Drop. Tap. Rub. Smear. Merge. One. Different. Many. Entity.
Plain. White.
Despair. Dark. Death. Fury. Anger. Fire. Light. Hope. Smile. Sunshine. Wet. Breathe. Life.
Rain. Vast. Water. Calm. Sky. Cool. Compose. Feel. Blue.
Lonely. Dull. Sad. Lost. Depress. Indigo. Independence. Freedom. Fear.
Dusk. Dawn. Resonance. Sound. Violet. Death. War.
Plain. White.
Smears. Strokes. Smooth. Soft. Harsh.
Pain. Hope. Fury. Anger. Despair. Dark. Smile. Hope. Sunshine. Fire. Calm. Cool. Lonely. War. Dusk. Dawn. Sunset. Sunrise. Rain. Ocean. Storm. Sunshine. Lightning. Clouds. Green. Grass. Wet. Mud. Feet. Hope. New. Expand. Freedom. Think. Feel. Live. Play. Dance. Look. See. Listen. Feel. Touch. Wet. Crunchy.
Plain. White. Contours. Paint. Oil. Smell. Touch. Believe.
Emotion.
Rainbows.
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