To smile. To be happy. To burst forth. Bursting. Just bursting with emotions. Bursting with happiness. Emotions. Exploding. Smiles. Hugs. Laughs. Pouring out of your smile. pouring into the world. Into the crevices. Into dark crevices untouched by sight, untouched by touch. It explodes. It bursts. It fills those crevices, those holes, those hollow spaces.
To smile. Smile, like you did the first time you sat on a swing. Like the first time you saw your parents. Really saw them, and didn't just look at them. When you saw their beauty, in producing and creating something. In creating you. The smile when you hear a beautiful song. Smile, like you do when your best friends hugs you and you know that whatever may happen, you have your own personal life support. The smile when you feel that drop on your nose. The first drop. The smile, when your little puppy comes and licks your tears away. The smile, when you get your first college acceptance. The smile, when you see that one person you know is going to change your life. The smile that sings lullabies to your soul. The smiles that lift you and levitate you and make you fly. The smiles that caress you and snuggle up with your soul and gently stroke it and tell you that you'll be all right. Just as long as you remember those smiles.
That's what hope is. And happiness.
The smiles.
They keep me going. They remind me of the happiness in the world. They remind me of hope. They remind me of flowers. Of joy. Of home. Of friends. Of beauty.
I was walking to my dorm today. I'd had a terrible day. For no particular reason. just one of those days when you're not out of bed yet, and you know you're going to be pissed off and angry with the world. one of those days that usually come at a particular time of the month.
I was walking. I was dreary. I was sad. I was angry. I was angry with the whole world. With people I thought were my friends. Angry with myself. Angry with expectations, with hope. Angry with everything.
And then I started to write this.
And now I'm smiling.
Well, almost. I'm trying hard to.
Because no matter how much you know, and how much you can read into situations, and understand them and analyse them; no matter how much you know what to do and how to pacify yourself, your sub-conscience almost always wins.
This brain is a powerful object. It has a life of it's own. Well, of course, since it's providing us with life. But, you can coax it, convince it, prove yourself wrong or right, tell yourslef things, yet your brain wins. Your emotions. They always win. They rule over the reasoning. They rule over rationality. That's how important emotions are. And that's how important smiles are.
A smile is a symbol which your brain sub-consciously accepts as warmth and happiness. It may be a stranger smiling at you out of pure politeness, but your brain has been programmed to receive it as a symbol of happiness. And so it will. And so you need to smile. Smile at everyone. People you know. People you don't know. Your best friends. Your parents. Your teachers. Your friends. Acquaintances. People you just met at a party the previous night. People you've never seen in your life. People who clean your bathrooms for you. People who're happy. People who're having a tough day. Especially people who're having a tough day. Who knows, it might be the best thing to happen to them all day. And then your selfish, egoistic brain will get pleasure at the thought of having made someone feel better, even if only the slightest bit.
It doesn't hurt to smile. So do it.
Smile.
Or grin.
It'll make you happy.
Trust me.
:)
If he can, so can you.
