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I just saw my first snowfall. Well, to be honest, I saw my first snowfall quite a few days back. But I didn't get around to writing about it. I was busy, you could say. Though I would say I had just gotten around to a vacation and was avoiding all forms of communication with all reminders of college or my past life or home. Anything that hurt, basically. I wanted my vacation to be happy. Hearing from my friends at home hurt. It hurt, because I wanted to be home so badly, and I couldn't. My longing for home has become a part of me. For years, home has had a deadline for me. It is a melancholy emptiness in me that thirsts to be filled. I wish, just once, I could fill that emptiness; fill it till it flowed and overflowed and till I wished no more. I wish... We wish for a lot. For money, for a big house, a big car, an awesome spouse... Well, who wouldn't want any of those. Of course, everyone does.
I wish....
I wish I had complete freedom. Freedom to do what I wished. Freedom from "them." Freedom from "it". The unholy "it" of money. Freedom from everything, but my own will. And what I wouldn't do then.
This is the part where I go ahead and sort of disagree with Ayn Rand. Objectivism is not the only way to live. In fact, were there no objects, no money, man would be free. But were it not for money, there would be no system. Would that be good? Or would it be bad?
I like being the devil's advocate. It's just a thing. There are so many times when a group of people (usually youngsters) would be discussing something, and they would almost all pick the same side. Even if I did agree with that side, however, just to show them that the other side did exist, was possible, and did have it perks, I'd pick it, just to show them that. Ego issues, aren't those?
But, hey, I was talking about snowfall. I ramble too much. Once I start, I don't know when to stop. My mind runs too fast for me to process it. Sometime I like to go back and retrace my steps, just to re-discover the marvel that is our minds. Isn't it brilliant?
I'll fill you in on the snowfall some other time :)
Till then, maybe you should think about whether the absence of money would be good or bad. Don't think about "what people would think". Think about whether it'll be good or bad according to YOUR standards of good and bad.

P.S. My mind is at a creative blank right now, as my post might've revealed.
P.P.S. That's why, since I couldn't think of a nice, creativity-induced title for the post, I just went to Google translate, wrote "I ramble too much" and translated it to Estonian. There. I just saved you the effort of opening google translate and going through all of that. All hail laziness!