I don't understand. Do people like being unhappy? Do they like wallowing in depression, in self pity? What sort of pleasure can self pity give any one?
Feeling sorry for yourself, pondering over how miserable life is, about how you can't handle things. I understand the situation, the misery of the person, but honestly, wouldn't it be a way better, happier option to just be happy? Accept life. Shit happens. Life can suck. it can be unfair. Stop pondering over it! Get a life! Don't waste it or it'll be gone before you know it and all that will be left will just be a shit load of REGRET.
yet is it really all that easy?
Is it?
I don't know. I don't think so. Maybe it is. Or maybe it isn't.
Can I really answer the question?
No.
I can't.
But pretty much, it's tough. Very tough.
Life can kill you. Yes, ironic isn't it?
LIFE can KILL you. Maybe nto physically. But I'm not even talking about your "heart" or your stomach or intestines. I'm taking about your MIND. About your soul. About what lies beneath all that hypocrisy and poseur-ism (?). Or maybe what just lies inside. Life can kill it, can;t it?
Sometimes it can.
The ones who wallow in self pity, depression and misery, they're easily the most vulnerable, the most innocent. Life gets them first. And it gets them hard.
It tempts them into more and mroe self pity, till that is all that remains. It devours all the happiness, all the joy, the hope. It devours it, till all that remains is regret, depression and SELF PITY.
Get over it.
There's life all around you. Happy faces. What if they were all the same, wallowing in their miseries. Where would the happiness be? Would the word eventually cease to exist? A fantasy word in ancient books?
Look at the happy faces. The smiles. The smirks. The hugs. :)
That's what life is.
Look at those smiles. Fprget the tears.
It's the smiles that get you by, not the tears.
It's the smiles that give you hope.
It's the smiles that make you think, "Hell, i can do this!"
It's the smiles that make you smile back.
Smile. :)
And who am I to morally lecture all those self pitiers everywhere?
I do it, too. Everyone does it. It's a trap. A very convenient trap. The easy way out.
Pity yourself. Gain sympathy. Might feel good. But does it really?
Nah.
There's tension eating me up. All over my insides. In my head. My hands. even my toes. Time flies.
And I'm filled with dread.
I'm filled with dread. The same me who was happy and smiling during the boards, content with the lack of preparation, the same me thinking, "I'll manage."
And now it's the same, yet slightly different, panicky me thinking, "There's a month left and I'm going to fail!"
Yes. School does that to you. Parents do that you.
Panic.
Pressure.
pain.
Laziness.
Tension.
Stress.
Worry.
All of it. All school. Dreams. Goals. The FUTURE as its called.
We all spend our lives thinking about the future that we miss it as it passes us by.
In Kindergarten: I want to become a teenager.
Reenager: study and get into a good college
College: study and get a good job
Job: get a promotion. Find a spouse.
Marriage: kids. Money. Etcetera etcetera
And it goes on.
In all this tension about the future, did we just forget to live right now, in the present?
I know I'm slowly losing it. I think of: College, jobs, money...
Money.
That's the evil, isn't it?
It eats you up. It kills you. It ruins you. IT EATS UP YOUR MIND.
That's what it does.
Everything we do, it's for money isn't it?
And the irony is.. We spend money educating ourselves so that we can apply that education and earn money. :P
Isn't it a vicious circle?
Everything's a vicious circle.
What came first?
The chicken or the egg?Can anybody really answer it?
It's a vicious circle.
You just have to smile through it. Kick it in the groin. Tell it to fuck off :)
Have fun. Headbang. Listen to music. Go swim. Watch friends. Hang out with friends. Crack lame jokes. Live your life, not other people's.
Live life. :)
Cos in the end, isn't that all that really matters?
...yeah!
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